nung nagkita tau... nakatitig lang ako... di makasalita... torete sayo... nakakatunaw ka... nabigla mo ko... la akong nasabi... habang hawak mo kamay ko...
nung sumunod... nakatingin ka lang... di kita malingon... tingin mo'y iniwasan... ala lang naman un para sayo diba?? bat ko ba maxadong iniisip??
mali kung ako yung mauna... pero pwede ba tayong mag-usap??
nakaranas na ko ng puppy love... malamang sino bang hindi right??
alam ko na ung feeling na hindi ka kausapin ng ex mo... kahit gaano keo kaclose nun... hirap mawalan ng kaibigan...
pero on the contrary naranasan ko na rin ung pakonswelo na mawalan ka ng bf at magkaroon ng kaibigan... or kuya pa nga eh!... ahehehe
naranasan ko na ung tripping lang... at natutunan na hindi pala pwedeng biro-biro lang ang lahat...
naransan ko na ring mapaasa, umiyak, masaktan at masabihang kaibigan ka lang sakin... aray! promise! ahehehe
naranasan ko na ung may patuloy na nagpapasaya sakin... habang ako nakokonsensya kasi alam kong nasasaktan ko lang siya...
alam ko rin na mabuting hanggang kaibigan na lang pala... para masmasaya!!
nakaranas na rin ako ng "spur of the moment"... yung sudden jolt and sudden fade ng nararamdaman...
isipin noi sa lahat ng yun dapat natuto n ako... pero now i've learned... walang sanay-sanay... walang practice practice... walang specific pattern yan eh... walang kasiguraduhan... puro uncertainty... I guess it's a bit like gambling... it's either you bet a lot on the wrong one and lose a lot or bet a whole bunch on the right one and win! pero unlike gambling... it's not based on luck... i believe that everything happens for a reason... if you meet a person you like and unfortunately you don't fall for each other... then maybe you were meant to be friends... and in the end you'll realize that it's either you helped that person grow... or that person helped you grow without you realizing it right away...
naku... pakiramdam ko lalagnatin na ko... nahihilo ako... waaaaaaaah!!
shucks... kakalito ang life... waaaaah!! may research pa kong gagawin bukas... problem set ko... malinis pa rin... pano ba kasi un???
nagload ako... bakit??? ewan... may itetext ba kong importante?? la naman ata... gosh... ilang araw na kong bangag at nawiwindang! no... anong ginawa ko??
waahhh!! ginugulo ko nanaman buhay ko!... ahehehe... duhh?!?! nasa mukha ko nanaman ung sagot... mangungulit pa!! like hello!! asa ka pa!!
eto... masluma... kanta... chords niya... --> a, e, f#m, d pero xempre di nio makukuha tono unless kantahin ko... so what's the use... hmmm... anyway....
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Buhay Xientia Nakakapagod kang talaga Mula umaga hanggang hapon kayod ka Aral ng aral para lang makapasa
Buhay Xientia Tunay nga namang kay saya Lalo na nang doo'y makilala ko siya Lahat ng pagod ay agarang nawawala
chorus: Buhay Xientia Halong pagod at saya Aral at tawanan magkasama Wari nga'y naririnig ko pa
Nakatambay ka na ba Sa Gazebong puno ng alaala Mula Calalay hanggang MathayI Bakas ang ngiti ng nakaraan
Sa buhay ng Xientian Di mawawala ang kantahan Bawat kumpas at tugtog ng gitara Jamming na parang di na matatapos pa
(repeat chorus...)
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kung xientian ka... makakaride ka siguro... kung hindi... well... ahehehe... sorry.... :)
hmmmm... kalokohan lang... sobrang ala lang... this poem was written around 8:00-9:00... basta english time... nung July 5.... ahehehe... al alang talaga toh....
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I was left alone standing still weeping, crying, dead, still breathing
Slowly unlocking these chains that bound my feet wanting to leavce this place of heat
Shouting, pleading, begging in silence Letting my eyes speak and not my lips
vague is the memory, vague were the words But the feelings i felt could still be heard
Closing my eyes, the pitch black exlains all And as i open my eyes, another tear falls
The smiles has faded, my eyes has ran dry All has now passed, and in the past they should lie
But the reminiscing is now and so are the run back of feelings I've let go and accepted it all, bt that won't stop me from remembering...
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walang saysay noh??? ala lang yan... ahehehe... nyay! ang drama pala...
lapit na magdc... ang gulo!! i shouldn't be thinking about this... diba??!! mali talaga eh... kausap ko nanaman sarili ko... inaantok na ko... but still my thoughts are adrift!! my mind afloat!
mangangapa nanaman ba ko sa dilim...? this is so wrong!! i know this will only end in tears! diba? lagi naman eh! no matter how i try... ang mali... di magiging tama!
it'll only be there to haunt you and remind you about the pain... halata bang may trauma... too fast... too many questions... so wrong... so wrong... so wrong...
never assume... diba??! shocks!! may malalaman ako bukas... i know... shocks... windang, windang nanaman ako niyan... ang pessimistic ko noh?? d ko na alam kung san ung fine lines ng pessimism, optimism at assuming!
haii... tawa muna ako... ahhahahahahaha yan... magmellow man lang muna pakiramdam ko...
I sat there and listend as minutes passed "and what's the molecular formula of..." Then my mind drifted away Off to green meadows and clear blue skies... Where I sat under a tree, read a book... And enjoyed the peace and silence...
"good bye and thank you mrs..." And then I came back Back in class... still sleepy... yawning "goodmornin mrs..." "have you answered your homework on idioms" And I was back in my very own room Beside my pillows... Having my well deserved sleep...
Minutes came... minutes passed... Still my day was in a daze... Blurred... vague... Boredom seeping in... Can't stop it... so I just welcomed it "ahem... ahem... Ms. Soriano?" S**t... I'm back in class again
hmmm... naisip ko lamang ituloy ang aking pagdradrama... kahit na walang reli. ~relivance~ ito sakin... malay ko ba kung senio meron... sige... basa lang... kung maiintindihan nio... labo ng utak ko eh...
Some one, some where
Some where out there I know... That some one out there knows... That some one right here knows... What that some one out there knows...
Some where I can feel... That some one out there feels... That some one right here feels... What that some one out there feels...
Some where out there... This some one out there prays... That this some one right here would pray... That together they would stay...
But this some one out there knows... That this some one right here feels... That this some one out there... Is simply too out there...
And that this some one right here fears... That this some one some where... Is some where too far out there... To feel what the some one right here feels...
This some one right here... Needs the other to be here... So that to the some one there it would be clear... What she knows, feels, prays and fears...
But sad as it may seem... The some one out there... Is still out there... And the one right here is still here...
So the some one right here... Still cries and weeps... Cause that some one out there’s... Now nothing but a dream...
ang saya kea ng buhay... thing is... kung pangit tingin nio sa buhay... baka sa maling anggulo mo tinitignan...
that was what i learned last saturday afternoon... i came to church from the... College of Science Lib. in U.P... doing... guess what?? malamang research!!! so i came to church mukhang stressed... iniisip mga dapat gawin sa lunes... iniisip kung pano ko matatapos ung research... i kept thinking that i can't handle it anymore... plus the fact that i am about to take my UPCAT on Aug 6-7... waaaaaah! i know na lahat ng seniors... na xientian can relate... and not to brag naman noh... pero nasa top pa ata project namin... so dagdag pressure... goshness diba?! and just the night before that... nagdradrama ako... kasi... ewan... the typical... kulang ata ako inspirasyon... kakamiss yung may kausap na ganun... isip ko pa nga toh eh...
isn't it nice to think that somewhere... somone is hoping that i'm doing fine... praying that i'm safe... wishing that i'll remain his... then i felt sad... realizing that... it was only me hoping... it was only me praying... it was only me... wishing... that somewhere, someone out there... was... hoping... wishing and hoping for me...
ahehehe... andrama noh?!?! and to think na naisip ko yan... while watching friends!! like hello!! todo drama pare!!
anyway... back to what happened nung sat... ayun... tapos... nag one to one session kami ni ate cux... she asked me about my week... and i started tealling the story glumly... "ayun... pagod... reserach... bladibladibladiblahhh..." and then... i suddenly remembered my friends... and how they're slowly becoming interested in learning about Christ... and how i was able to rejoing the research group i was removed from... (long story...) how i was able to wake up every morning... still feeling fine... and that i could still laugh about stuffs... that i have a new book to read... na i have a new phone (though i sort of have to pay for it) na nakausap ko yung mga taong medyo matagal ko nang di nakakausap... (kuya alex, ate hannah, kuya sig... etc...)
then i came up with the conclusion that there are a lot of things that we should be thankful for... problema kasi... we look at the negative side of life... kea nababadtrip tayo... pakasaya na lang tayo!!! smile palagi!!
